Juice Feast: Day 26~

Sleep: 12:15pm-7:00am
Skin brushing/tongue scraping Hot/cold contrasting shower
Juice: 32ounces "Sweet Tarts"-- pear, cucumber, kiwi, apple, lime, cilantro, mint
Juice: 32 oz "Green Lemonade" -- romaine, kale, celery, apple, cuke, ginger, lemon, pure synergy, zeolite, salt
Juice: 52 ounces "Pretty in Pink" --tangelo, blood orange, pink grapefruit with liquid C, Vitamin D3 and MSM
Hot Tea with 3 tsp of honey on the side- Ughhh, not a good idea kids. After the third tsp, which I totally didn't need, my head was swimming and achy and I could feel the low blood sugar shakes coming on. Good reminder of my original intention with all this --to not over due the sugar in all its various forms.
Walking: 4 miles
Body Work: Almost two hours of Rolfing today. My therapist couldn't believe how different my body was (he hasn't seen me in two weeks and a lot has changed) and how well it responded to all the structural and muscle work. (When you are detoxing, your body becomes incredible sensitive and responsive to EVERYTHING) Today we focused on the inseams of the feet and legs as well as the pelvic floor. The title of the session was "Control and Surrender." Many memories and emotions were stirred up as he manipulated thick layers of fascia in my calves and thighs and gently coaxed all my lower-body diaphragms (arches, knees, pelvis and abdomen) to release and soften.

After my bodywork session, I really wanted to go home and take a nap and let my body rest, absorb and assimilate all that that it had experienced, but I had to go right up town to my nanny job. So I felt pretty low-energy/enthusiasm for the rest of the afternoon, and in attempt to give myself a little energy boost, what did I do, but go straight to my old habit, sugar--well, honey in this case (a little is considered ok while JFing). However, this flowing, liquid gold is not to be abused. The first tsp tasted so amazing that I took another and then another and then CRASH --tired (more so than the first time) and shaky. So, while I feel so much stronger within myself, there is still work to be done. But that's ok. I realize that finding what is balance for me is a life long practice. Sometimes I have to push my boundary in order to remember where the middle is again. But, I assure you I won't be doing it again tomorrow ;)

So I have been feeling both excited and anxious about coming off this feast. In someways having completed 30 days (almost) seems like a HUGE feat and I feel completely in awe that I had the discipline, dedication and desire (all the d's) to do it. In other ways, I feel like there is still so much to reveal and unearth that has yet to be addressed, which makes me feel like I should keep feasting.

But the reality is is that I don't really plan to stop. JFing is just an accelerated and intensified version of what I have already been doing everyday prior for the last year, and I plan to keep lots of juiciness in my life-- well, forever! Why would I ever want to stop putting pure life force into my body?

Today when I was getting blockages in my body worked out, so much emotionally was surfacing simultaneously. I was thinking about how there is no way even 5 years ago I would have been able to do this (both Rolfing and JFing). Certainly I thought that detoxing, rolfing, meditating, etc., was all great -- but for everyone else, not for me. I was scared to face myself, my potential, my success, my fears and the unknown. Who would I be and how would I function in this world if I let all my safe guards go? Isn't life so much easier when we have something distracting us from what we truly desire? Isn't it so much easier to just say, as you eat ANOTHER cookie, "screw it" and "screw the world"?

This was the stuck, miserable place I was in before juice feasting. A lot was going right, but a lot, particularly behind the sense where totally out of control and leaving me feeling defeated day in and day out.

So to make a long, epic saga short, this is why I am doing this, because I refuse to live my life in the rut of my own existence. I want to feel free, at peace, in my body, in my heart and honor myself 100% of the time. And when I don't-- like in the case of the honey today-- that's ok, it's just a reminder or an awakening of sorts that I have choice and can choose my path in every moment. I am no longer afraid to just sit and NOT react to an intense craving or dis-empowering thought.

I already feel like I just made it to the top of Mt. Everest and am now looking out over the beautiful vista of what life really has to offer me-- anything I want it to!

Now, for these last few days, I am going to just bask in the joy and beauty of this journey as it continues to bloom.

xxkyle