Juice Feast: Day 27

...getting ready to jump into new waters
Sleep: 11: 15pm-7:00am
Hot Tea: 16oz Roasted Dandelion Root -- great for the liver
Skin brushing/tongue scraping Hot/cold contrasting shower
Juice: 64ounces "South of the Border"-- watermelon, kiwi, pear, cilantro, lime, ginger and cayenne pepper! WOW, this is a keeper --love the sweet, spicy tango on my tongue...rarrr
Juice: 32 oz "Bleeding Hearts" --beet, carrot, kale, romaine, celery, ginger, lime
Juice: 32 ounces "Green Lemonade" -- romaine, celery, kale, cucumber, ginger, lime, zeolite
Juice: 32 ounces "Pretty in Pink" --tangelo, blood orange, pink grapefruit with liquid C, Vitamin D3 and MSM
Walking: 2 miles -- wasn't feeling up to more
Colonic: I can't believe how much my cells are decompressing and going back to their optimal homeostasis. All the of the gases that have built up over time due to bad eating habits have been awakened and now are being dumped (quickly) into my cecum (kind of like a garbage can in the Lg. Intestine) and screaming to be released. So that I did, phew!

One of the fears I have faced while JFing is admitting my vulnerabilities to myself and then exposing them for all the world to see through this blog. I have found this to be a very humbling yet rewarding experience.

As a nutritionist, it was really hard for me to "come out of the closet" and express my less than prefect eating habits. When I was studying nutrition with my Ayurvedic teachers many years back, one of the things that disturbed me was that they didn't put much of their teachings into practice. For hours they would lecture on mindful food combing, not eating too much or too late at night, and treating your body like a temple not a trash can. But, once class was over, very little would translate into reality and their health suffered.

As much as I wanted to be true to myself and my clients, it has always been a struggle to live by what I believe in. The push and pull of life has been a stronger force than my own inner strength, which over time has lead to a vicious cycle of food abuses. Food became a distraction from really facing my "stuff" and my fears, and yet I didn't want anyone to know, especially my clients. I was starting to feel like I had built a prison around myself.

So JFing and blogging about my process and experience has been incredibly liberating for me. It has kept me "honest" and accountable, which is exactly the structure I needed to be successful. I have discovered through JFing that often my bad habits would rear their heads when I was bored and wanted to be distracted. Now there is no nagging reason to get up after every email to find a "snack" in the cupboard or pop another piece of chocolate in my month. I am perfectly content staying focused on other things.

But I am far from "perfect" nor strive to be a goody-goody. My goal is to enjoy things in their rightful time and place. Sweets have their appropriate moments as do snacks and a glass of wine. But I want indulging be the exception and not the rule -- something to celebrate and savor among the company of friends, not "cheating" and feeling guilt and shame as I shove something into my mouth each night after a long days work. That is not a treat, it's a punishment.

Since JFing, I feel like what I long for has been awakened and totally accessible! Now, I know what it feels like to be on the other side looking in not out.