Juice Feast: Day Nine

Sleep: 11:00 p.m. to 7:30 a.m.-- Yikes, it's really 8:30!!
Water: 16 ounces with, lemon, MSM (1 tsp), probiotic, zeolite (x5 drops)
Skin brushing/tongue scraping
Hot/cold contrasting shower
Juice: 64 ounces "Green Lemonade" -- romaine, celery, kale, cuke, apple, ginger, lime, zeolite, a generous dash of Himalayan sea salt
Juice: 32 ounces "Bleeding Hearts" --beets, romaine, kale, carrot, burdock root, celery, apple, ginger, lime, 1Tbs Pure Synergy Powder, Liver/gallbladder Detox tincture (x10 drops), liquid Kelp
Juice: 32 ounces "Spice-n-Nice" --pear, apple, GINGER, parsley
Juice: 22 ounces "Pretty in Pink" --tangelo, orange, pink grapefruit
Peppermint Tea
Additional Supplements: E3 live, vitamin D, liquid vitamin C, Intestinal Movement Formula, Zinc Lozenger
"White Truffle" with bee pollen and enriched honey-- 1 Tbs coconut oil--this is my first time taking one of these in four days, just have not been able to stomach the savory juices or the oils, but I felt my body needed some extra fat today, so I ate one and immediately got a gassy and rumbley stomach :(
Enema: After taking the oil by intestines when bonkers, so decided to get out the big guns. Helped a little bit, but the gurgling is still happening..hummm?
Rebounding: 20 mins
Sun Kissed/Cat nap: 20 mins on the "patio"
Walk: About 45 mins

Well, kids, today could not be more different than yesterday. I started the day off feeling well, but as time went on I began to feel increasingly more annoyed with the JFing lifestyle, the constant low grade feeling of hunger, schlepping 40 + pounds of groceries across the city and feeling so restricted.

I found myself at one point this afternoon just wanting to throw in the towel and say screw it, this sucks, I want to be part of society again! But then I looked around and everyone looked like the walking dead with their ashy skin, premature aging, stress and worry lines, neglected bodies, rounded shoulders, etc., and then my mind shifted back to the JFing team.

I also realized while I was feeling so badly about JFing that it was not the JFing at all, I was just frustrated with myself, with these stubborn waves of old patterns that keep resurfacing. Normally when I feel crabby, I head straight for the cupboard and chow down on whatever is there and ready to calm my nerves but I could not do that this time and it pissed me off.

Once I worked through those feelings I did have some clarity about myself. See, although I am a Libra sign, I am very attracted to pretty extreme life styles. I am an all or nothing kind of girl and finding a place in the middle or the "happy medium" is not easy for me. I was meditating on this today and this question arose: is JFing for 92 day (potentially) just another extreme measure for me to be taking? Is this really going to help bring me into balance? Or is it just feeding into my weaknesses? I not sure...I am contemplating the idea of JFing for 20 or 30 days and then stopping, reintroducing foods, see how that goes in terms of how I react to them being in my life again, and then maybe doing another round of JFing at the end of the summer. Maybe several smaller JF's would be more healing then one long intensive one?

I am trying to listen to my body, but it is so up and down --one day it LOVES JFing the next it HATES it (again the extremes), that I am not sure what it really wants, needs or desires. All I know is that I don't want to go beyond my limits and then find myself on the other end eating like I am making up for lost time--not being able to get enough in.

So I am going to sit with these contemplations for a while and see what comes out of them.

On another note, I came down with the start of a sore throat in the afternoon and feeling a bit headachy too.....strange, I so rarely get sick and I had so much Vit C today? Maybe old junk is detoxing?